Need to Hear Me Out

About

Hi :-) I'm Sarah, and I'm sixteen years young. I'd like to think I've learned a lot in these 16 years, things like, learning to walk, learning to read, learning to spell, learning to use the computer, learning to do a cartwheel, or learning every single line to every Taylor Swift song. And some much harder things like, learning to forgive, learning to let go, learning sometimes you just have to live with the consequences, learning to always have faith things will change, and learning to admit you're wrong and to try again over and over before getting it right. It's these things that can make me feel guarded and cautious, but they also make me happier and stronger. Because I'm never going to stay the same person, but I'm never going to completely change either. We all need to go out and buy fairy floss and laugh in the grass with our friends and just be 7. I am a Pisces which is supposed to make me 'the dreamer'. I think that fits. I spend most of my time in a daydream, where everything out of reach is suddenly right in front of me. I write these dreams down. I keep a journal. And I write in it every night. I fill it with everything and anything. In there I have the chance to say anything. To write down a song, or an idea or just a thought, that I might never get back to. It may sit there for days, months, or years until i retouch on it. But it's there. Memories fade and ideas become forgotten, so whenever I think of something, I write it down. Dreams can come up and surprise you in times when you least expect it. Not everything is hard, but not everything is easy. When you get an opportunity, don't leave it standing for fear. For example I'm one of the girls who has always dreamed of becoming a cheerleader and recently out of no where, I've been given the chance. I think it's all those American movies. The ones who gave me the completely wrong idea of high school. I think those movies are also to blame for my random use of American phrases, words and accents. Even though I'm Australian, I still call it a sidewalk. That and my constant need to listen to Taylor Swift. I love surprises. I also love the anticipation and excitement that leads up to something you're looking forward to. I love the feeling of not being about to think of or talk about anything else, the countdown and the constant obnoxiousness of it all. I don't like spiders. And I don't like doing nothing. I love people I can relate to, and people who like my wry, sarcastic sense of humor. I love my abercrombie t-shirt, lots. I always sit on my feet/ legs too long and get pins and needles. I don't like that. I don't like making decisions when I don't have to. So I usually have to get someone else to choose the shade of pink nail polish I should wear. I am definitely the most indecisive person I know. I over analyse and over organise everything. I think too much. I have the tendency to be terribly absent-minded. I love Summer because I love the beach. I love feeling warm. That's probably because I'm always freezing. Somehow my feet manage to get cold on 40 degree days. I love how pretty winter looks in countries where it snows. It appears all so magical. I love flowers, especially roses. I wear too many bracelets all the time and I get obsessed with Christmas. I love big sun glasses, red lipstick, dresses and cowboy boots. I love accents, and freckles. I ask too many questions and I always have to have the last word. I'm over talkative. I love my sharpie and my room. I love going into antique stores and looking at all the old things. I love the number 11. It's lucky. 17's also have the peculiar habit of following me around whenever something good is happening. I love football but I don't like PE. I love rocking chairs. I love writing letters to people in my spare time. I love Taylor Swift. I love it when things intrigue me. I love secret places. I love excitable people. Many things get me excited, and you'll know when they do, I tend to show it. I still wear my favourite dress all year round. And I still get scared at night when I hear a strange noise. I think it's the unknown that frightens me. I don't like scary movies. I've finally been able to admit it to myself that I don't like them, and I shouldn't watch them. Especially not when I could watch something with a happy ending. I love love stories, because I’m sort of obsessed with them. The kind that give me hope of one day finding my Prince Charming on his white horse, fully equipped with a guitar slung around his back, a football in his hand and great hair. Newton's Third Law states: For every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction and this is probably the only thing I've learned and remembered from a science lesson. Nobody's perfect and even I get on my own nerves sometimes. I believe just because you can't sing well, doesn't mean you shouldn't. I've been playing piano since I was 8 and I've been writing songs since I was 12. I treat it as writing a letter. A letter where you can be completely honest and say the things you couldn't in the moment. I have random outbursts of non stop talking. The kind where I'll talk to anyone. About anything. And then they walk off as their friend whispers to them 'who's she?' and they'll 'no idea'. I really wish I could control these. So I could put them to good use. Because there are so many moments where I haven't said what I wanted to while I had the chance. I'm not very good at that. But people don't know what you're thinking, unless you tell them. This isn't an episode of Smallville where people can read minds. Where you're as fast as the speed of light. Or where people are as strong as steel. So I'm really working on being Fearless enough to have the courage to Speak Now. Well y'all, it seems it didn't take long for this to become novel length, or at least ridiculously long. I did say, anything and everything, I write it all down. This is what I have to say about the 15 years I have been alive. And anyone who spent their time reading this, I do appreciate it. Thank you. I love YOU for it. and when you think Taylor Swift, I hope you think of me... lovelovelove -Sarah ♥